the stove was red hot, lit like firecrackers blood in panic. the kettle yelled for help, screaming. sirens rushing as the smoke signaled quick! quick! hush hush, breathes heartbeats. pound. pound. pound........ lifeline stopped. stove turned off. moments. of. silence. burner becomes cool. tea leaves scatter to the very bottom of the cup.


the heartless

There are many times in life in which we will encounter people who do not make sense to us. For me, I will never understand a person who purposefully tears down another for senseless reasons. Life is already a difficult journey to navigate and it is one that does not last very long. WE ARE [...]


There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can't contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to [...]

moving forward

There are these little baby steps that appear. Out of nowhere, there are traces of movements heading towards one path with little footprints behind me. It's automatic like breathing. Whether there are turns coming or roadblocks, that I do not know. I can't see far ahead. I can't see it at all. I am scared. [...]


You were a very challenging year, 2018. One of the hardest I've experienced. There were many heartbreaking moments, meaningful moments and moments of triumph and moments of doubt. Dear readers, thank you. Thank you all for reading this year. Thank you for your time. Thank you for your thoughts and simply being here.  I wish [...]

not here

The overwhelming memories Faze in and out of my mind Like a visual crescendo of life Passing through the years. Your voice is the audio track Tracing the outlines of what was. Tears stream down my face Starting out warm, Then cold as it reaches my chin. I search for you in my mind. My [...]

above rough waters

Life seems a bit like being thrown into chaotic waters. We are deer in headlights because the world can just toss and turn us into a whole new dimension that we have to assimilate to. To understand a whole new way of life is such a mind and body bender. Deep breathes; a moment to [...]

blind no more

For so long, I didn't recognize the image that M***** had seen. I couldn't comprehend her choice to walk on the path of struggle; towards a life that would create pain. But I see it so, so clearly now. It was inevitable now I see. As a  young child, you try to your best to [...]

painted skies

I stared out onto the sky for hours. Seeing how it changed from moment to moment. The transitions happened so seamlessly and whenever I blinked, there was a new transformation. An airplane from afar flew by; painted the sky with its own clouds of patterns. Catching the sunset is so humbling. Brings me down from [...]

take a hike

I went on an unexpected hike yesterday to a whole new place I've never gone to. It was refreshing. I hadn't gone in months and it felt like my soul rejuvenated. My lungs cleared with deep breaths. My heart was calm from the beauty. I felt like my whole being craved being in nature for [...]