i noticed, at this very instance, that i’ve been feeling more with my heart than thinking with my mind. maybe this is just now. maybe it’s been for a while. i was reading a blog post about why history was important and it wasn’t that i was bored or that the content wasn’t important, it was that my heart was over my mind. distracted. unfocused. so right now, i guess, you could say i’m writing from the heart. wondering, what is it trying to say?
one’s life involves so many various decisions and experiences. every perspective is a different one. it reminds me of those stories that we all have heard about those coincidences and maybe not coincidences at all. the ones how actors will say something like, “i wouldn’t change anything because it lead me right where i am now.” or how some boy, who was from the middle of nowhere, somehow created an empire and was now famous for something none of us would have ever thought of or would ever think to do. and i start to think of how many of those people do i know? thinking, would i change anything? thinking, no one really knows anything at all. we just decide to. we make the decision.
i apologize ahead of time for the grammatical and spelling errors. i’m learning now that when one’s heart is in control, it does not care what is logical or what makes sense. it doesn’t care about rules or holding back. it’s the almost too natural instinct to let go. whether it is to show love to someone. let go of the fear. whehter it is to follow your dreams. let go of the routine. whether it is to eat junk food. let go of control. i’m following my heart right now. i’ve already made several spelling mistakes and fixed them. but i’m letting go now. i’m letting go of being right.