a work of fiction

I had a suspicion that it didn't matter that I was there. I was a placeholder. A person warming the seat. I could be seen so clearly because I just wasn't there. He looked out the window behind me and could see the clouds drift by. Without a word, I stood up and walked to [...]


one choice

I sat in my chair and had a sudden realization that I was exactly where I should be. I made the choice. I made the decision to leap into the possibility of failure; an equal possibility of success. There's this symbolism of one-ness. The internal dialogue we have with ourselves to motivate our intentions. Why [...]


maybe the smoothness of his face wasn't because he made it that way. it came by accident and possibly really good genes. beauty seen through the outside always seem like a lot of work or this effortless ideal that is hard to acquire. the photograph of him, looking right at the camera, looks like he [...]

here. with me.

the weight of you hand on mine, whispers from your voice clings. the nearness of your being being held so tightly feels like being alive. like being loved. to be loved. to love. the smirk that hangs on your face, makes the visage just right. how we walk out of pace, our differences in height [...]

3/17/18 thoughts | leaving behind

the box hidden in the corner, unlocked and open. within were things left behind, looked so fragile, untouched. seeing memories that weren't mine, i learned it was what she took, not what she left behind that mattered to her most. ------- there is so much emphasis on the things one has. the things one wears [...]

Music video review: MONDO GROSSO / ラビリンス

There's something so powerful and romantic about this video. The cinematography is shot well with a clear vision of beginning to end. I admire and wish I could dance so freely as the woman in the video does; so comfortably in city streets as if she's in her home like a child at play. Similarly, [...]

3/11/18 thoughts

It's okay to grapple with your feelings. We all do it and quite often. It's the behind-the-scene-parts we don't show, nor can we really. It's those internal lightning sparks we make when the connections come clear and we can somehow find resolution to how we are feeling in any given moment of the day. We [...]

take care

The mind has its own mind. It will keep going, thinking, planning, worrying, strategizing long after my head rests on the pillow. There's this conflict at play. Breathing usually assists in balancing the whole being. Like opened windows in summer's day as new air freshens long dormant corners and walls. The machine of my body [...]

moments with those who stand out

We wandered in the nearby supermarket. It was small. It was unfamiliar. Words were written in different languages and we decided without deciding that we'd come here every morning until we left. You got me eating muesli and I crave it to this day. Muesli with soy milk and some fruit. I miss our walks [...]