scattered

the stove was red hot, lit like firecrackers blood in panic. the kettle yelled for help, screaming. sirens rushing as the smoke signaled quick! quick! hush hush, breathes heartbeats. pound. pound. pound........ lifeline stopped. stove turned off. moments. of. silence. burner becomes cool. tea leaves scatter to the very bottom of the cup.

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heartbreak

There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can't contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to [...]

moving forward

There are these little baby steps that appear. Out of nowhere, there are traces of movements heading towards one path with little footprints behind me. It's automatic like breathing. Whether there are turns coming or roadblocks, that I do not know. I can't see far ahead. I can't see it at all. I am scared. [...]

not here

The overwhelming memories Faze in and out of my mind Like a visual crescendo of life Passing through the years. Your voice is the audio track Tracing the outlines of what was. Tears stream down my face Starting out warm, Then cold as it reaches my chin. I search for you in my mind. My [...]

blind no more

For so long, I didn't recognize the image that M***** had seen. I couldn't comprehend her choice to walk on the path of struggle; towards a life that would create pain. But I see it so, so clearly now. It was inevitable now I see. As a  young child, you try to your best to [...]

painted skies

I stared out onto the sky for hours. Seeing how it changed from moment to moment. The transitions happened so seamlessly and whenever I blinked, there was a new transformation. An airplane from afar flew by; painted the sky with its own clouds of patterns. Catching the sunset is so humbling. Brings me down from [...]

to escape not

the feeling of escape intensifies the drama longing for stability trading in time for today to secure my tomorrow. but my mind forgets plans and schedules. finding the safety means finding the truth. escapism is fleeting reality is not. peace covers me tonight warms me as soft blankets do as truths sing me to sleep. [...]

stream of consciousness or reality?

we surrendered our weapons, poured our hearts into rivers, sacrificed our words for visions. so it could flow forever across lands. unity was built by wooden pallets, left by the side of abandoned buildings. seen, but ignored, unwanted. no longer does this exist. with unity, we created bridges walked across them with our souls trust [...]

Redwood National Parks | photo diary post | travel

Redwoods was comfortable, but at times it took my breath away because of the exhilarating beauty.  I feel so connected to something so close to my source, my soul. Redwoods gave me peace and calm. One hike here is not like another. It's all a different experience.   The Redwoods changed me. I felt so much [...]

love heals

I created this paint image the same night I made the "smooth colors" entry a post earlier. It's hard to imagine that 2018 is coming. Throughout this year, there have been strong, positive forces making important changes and with those waves, I think it's important that we all remember that love is our greatest power. [...]

smooth colors transitions

I had potatoes baking in the oven and leftover basil pesto that needed using up. As the delicious carb-y dish takes its time heating, I listened to podcasts and tried to figure out what it is they wanted to tell me. Media's become kind of hard to digest lately. So while the podcast chattered, I [...]

capturing light

Capturing is such a savage word. Like taking a prisoner without freedom. But capturing light is unlike its sound. It's more like setting oneself free. I ended up printing this out for my dad and it came out gorgeously. I know I'm biased since he's my dad, but wow, it's one of the prettiest things [...]