love, up-close

As I walked by the little pond, I saw lily pads in a group at the center. The whole environment was calming with a couple of ducks and people from afar. I zoomed in with my camera and saw water lilies scatter among the green leaves. They were small and hard to see. This image [...]

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feeling home

Years ago, I visited this no-kill cat shelter and saw this beautiful cat. S/he looked so warm and happy; weren't scared of us or anything at all. I think they felt at home. Look at those cute paws! It's so automatic as a child to feel at home. Well, speaking from my perspective, it was. [...]

two too many

These photographs were taken during one of the best years of my life. I went on so many adventures and learned more of who I was. I felt free. And yet, it wasn't forever. The photographs stay there and the memories come along, but the reality is still different. It's different because time has passed. [...]

believe in us

I had a chance to meet two new people today. And although I met them separately, they gave me the same good vibes called happiness and gratitude. There's something about the way they presented themselves and how they spoke that really showed the kind of character they had. Both work in their field of studies [...]

reaching a milestone

I've written on this blog for several years. Truly, this platform has been one of the greatest things in my life. I reached a big milestone yesterday and I am so proud of getting here. It is not what the achievement is necessarily, it's more about what it means to me. It signifies a passing [...]

a day to love

Long gone are the days in which I'd idolize the suave British actor or the sweet, yet flawed teen heartthrob. I have come a long way. We all have. Relationships can be complicated and layered and I think media makes it very easy to ignore the harder parts. But I also think the joyful, deeply [...]

music therapy

it's the piano keys hitting the downer notes. it's the guitar that strums along with the beat. it's the lyrics that dance along the melodies. it's the meaning behind all the words; every single letter that created the masterpiece. i used to live in this bubble of misconception that what i listened to defined who [...]

Food review – dan tat (egg tart) at Golden Gate Bakery

I waited in line for this flaky (does anyone else think this word looks funny? I had to Google it to make sure I spelled it correctly) crust, sweet soft custard filling for over 20 minutes I think. I told him, "This better be worth it." He gave me this half smile and his left [...]

heartbreak

There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can't contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to [...]

painted skies

I stared out onto the sky for hours. Seeing how it changed from moment to moment. The transitions happened so seamlessly and whenever I blinked, there was a new transformation. An airplane from afar flew by; painted the sky with its own clouds of patterns. Catching the sunset is so humbling. Brings me down from [...]

I am whole

The door was left unclosed. The feeling of the isolation Crept in without a sound. My heart sank into an abyss Of ache and guilt. The intensity feels unshakeable. Its strong defense against My will to survive is one Worthy opponent. But my mind, however, beaten Recognizes my soul and hushes My confused heart. It [...]

3/11/18 thoughts

It's okay to grapple with your feelings. We all do it and quite often. It's the behind-the-scene-parts we don't show, nor can we really. It's those internal lightning sparks we make when the connections come clear and we can somehow find resolution to how we are feeling in any given moment of the day. We [...]

moments with those who stand out

We wandered in the nearby supermarket. It was small. It was unfamiliar. Words were written in different languages and we decided without deciding that we'd come here every morning until we left. You got me eating muesli and I crave it to this day. Muesli with soy milk and some fruit. I miss our walks [...]

quiet snow days

Alone. Surrendering underneath the rising sun. Hot. The heat radiates onto the roofs of snowy abyss, melting down creating icicles on the edges of shingles. I stand before the open vast blanket of beautiful, untouched snow. After multiple repetitions of shoveling the millions of snowflakes from under, over and then walking piles across, I took [...]