heartbreak

There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can't contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to [...]

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2018

You were a very challenging year, 2018. One of the hardest I've experienced. There were many heartbreaking moments, meaningful moments and moments of triumph and moments of doubt. Dear readers, thank you. Thank you all for reading this year. Thank you for your time. Thank you for your thoughts and simply being here.  I wish [...]

painted skies

I stared out onto the sky for hours. Seeing how it changed from moment to moment. The transitions happened so seamlessly and whenever I blinked, there was a new transformation. An airplane from afar flew by; painted the sky with its own clouds of patterns. Catching the sunset is so humbling. Brings me down from [...]

I am whole

The door was left unclosed. The feeling of the isolation Crept in without a sound. My heart sank into an abyss Of ache and guilt. The intensity feels unshakeable. Its strong defense against My will to survive is one Worthy opponent. But my mind, however, beaten Recognizes my soul and hushes My confused heart. It [...]

3/11/18 thoughts

It's okay to grapple with your feelings. We all do it and quite often. It's the behind-the-scene-parts we don't show, nor can we really. It's those internal lightning sparks we make when the connections come clear and we can somehow find resolution to how we are feeling in any given moment of the day. We [...]

moments with those who stand out

We wandered in the nearby supermarket. It was small. It was unfamiliar. Words were written in different languages and we decided without deciding that we'd come here every morning until we left. You got me eating muesli and I crave it to this day. Muesli with soy milk and some fruit. I miss our walks [...]

quiet snow days

Alone. Surrendering underneath the rising sun. Hot. The heat radiates onto the roofs of snowy abyss, melting down creating icicles on the edges of shingles. I stand before the open vast blanket of beautiful, untouched snow. After multiple repetitions of shoveling the millions of snowflakes from under, over and then walking piles across, I took [...]

much love 2017

I've changed a bit this year. I am so happy that the posts I created show so much of the nature and peace I've felt throughout 2017. There was much growth and meaning to be had and as each year passes, I want that to continue. I am certain 2018 will be an interesting year. [...]

Redwood National Parks | photo diary post | travel

Redwoods was comfortable, but at times it took my breath away because of the exhilarating beauty.  I feel so connected to something so close to my source, my soul. Redwoods gave me peace and calm. One hike here is not like another. It's all a different experience.   The Redwoods changed me. I felt so much [...]

love heals

I created this paint image the same night I made the "smooth colors" entry a post earlier. It's hard to imagine that 2018 is coming. Throughout this year, there have been strong, positive forces making important changes and with those waves, I think it's important that we all remember that love is our greatest power. [...]

happy birthday to you

To one of the greatest people in my life, Happy birthday to you. I see you all the time, Of a photograph given to me, On the day we celebrated your life. The moments you touched us. The memories we continue to carry I'll remember you For what you stood for. One of a kind, [...]

let love live on

I recently read with wide eyes of memories from long ago. Some not too long ago, maybe a few months back to even as far back as six to seven years ago. In-between these pages of funny nights, favorite restaurant lists and quotes that make us chuckle is time. As I read them aloud, we [...]

papawei scenic lookout | maui, hawaii | travel

A short narration based on a piece I wrote called, our dreams, conveyed through these photographs. The words above were: We flew in from a place that had everything we ever needed. A home to protect us from danger, food that would feed our empty stomachs and love that would warm our hearts until the [...]

held tight

I felt so overwhelmed and blanketed with my emotions.  I was blinded by them and up until now, I had not realized what that really meant.  I walked outside against the wind and against the cold.  My hoodie was all that I had, plus my keys.  After sitting for several minutes on the crunchy beach [...]