There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can't contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to [...]


moving forward

There are these little baby steps that appear. Out of nowhere, there are traces of movements heading towards one path with little footprints behind me. It's automatic like breathing. Whether there are turns coming or roadblocks, that I do not know. I can't see far ahead. I can't see it at all. I am scared. [...]

not here

The overwhelming memories Faze in and out of my mind Like a visual crescendo of life Passing through the years. Your voice is the audio track Tracing the outlines of what was. Tears stream down my face Starting out warm, Then cold as it reaches my chin. I search for you in my mind. My [...]

above rough waters

Life seems a bit like being thrown into chaotic waters. We are deer in headlights because the world can just toss and turn us into a whole new dimension that we have to assimilate to. To understand a whole new way of life is such a mind and body bender. Deep breathes; a moment to [...]

blind no more

For so long, I didn't recognize the image that M***** had seen. I couldn't comprehend her choice to walk on the path of struggle; towards a life that would create pain. But I see it so, so clearly now. It was inevitable now I see. As a  young child, you try to your best to [...]

take a hike

I went on an unexpected hike yesterday to a whole new place I've never gone to. It was refreshing. I hadn't gone in months and it felt like my soul rejuvenated. My lungs cleared with deep breaths. My heart was calm from the beauty. I felt like my whole being craved being in nature for [...]

life is permanent

The loneliness seeped under the door, The bed felt soft under my wings, Arms stretched like a snowy patch of land. My pink curtains swayed ever so lightly Like willow trees my cousin pointed out That young, windy,  July day. It was quiet in the car after the doors shut. The locks clicked in place [...]

age is just age

I think I wanted the easy answer. Scratch that, I definitely wanted the easy answer. The ease of feeling free without doing the work. To lift my spirits up without ever needing anything at all. Like when I was a child and time was frivolously spent, as it should, with childhood best friends, playing outside [...]

everything will be

I want to speak to you, Longing to hear comfort Of where this road is leading. Reality seems a bit staged Television show and unreal In the saddest sense of meaning. Where did the sparkles go? The kind that surprised and amazed Distracted wanderers of darkness. Nothing seems real, Nothing seems fake. In the midst [...]

I am whole

The door was left unclosed. The feeling of the isolation Crept in without a sound. My heart sank into an abyss Of ache and guilt. The intensity feels unshakeable. Its strong defense against My will to survive is one Worthy opponent. But my mind, however, beaten Recognizes my soul and hushes My confused heart. It [...]