fear to free

I've had the Bittersweet Symphony song in my head for a few days now. Why? Not sure. It's not a song I typically listen to, although, I haven't really indulged in music in general lately anyway. Perhaps it's my mind wanting the vibe it gives because it certainly does give one, doesn't it? A close [...]


I am ready.

I can feel the wheel of circumstances change. Overwhelming happiness is on the horizon. Never forgetting you. Never ever, ever. Taking the constant feelings seriously. My curiosity for the world is thriving. I am ready.


Tis the season to get out there and enjoy the weather. Rain or shine, I've been out there building a whole new landscape, literally. Child me would be super surprised that this is how I'd like to spend as part of my summer--watering flowers, getting the soil ready and planting seeds. I'd never thought I'd [...]

a surreal night | true story

I was in a foreign country, but it was a place I called home at the time. As I sat in the too cool taxi, my aunt talked with me about life stuff I can't quite remember. She asked me to go to the jazz lounge with her that night and see a a famous [...]


"Is this forever?" I wondered, while eating a huge strawberry sundae with sprinkles on top I didn't finish. Collecting marbles Filling a neverending Glass jar with every Color swirl combination Imaginable, carrying A piece of hope in each. Sipping on sweet Lemonade on dry summers Intrigued by the notion Of ever understanding Life's eternal limbo [...]

it’s coming // it’s come and gone

music: sleeping at last - saturn I didn't think I'd write a "wrap-up" post of 2017. I guess this isn't really the case; it's more like a "2018 is coming" and how I'm feeling kind of post. Um, maybe a mixture of both. I'll get to it now.. I'm not sure how I'm feeling about [...]


circumstances don't care who you are they drift in in any form they want to. it could disguise itself clothed in costume creating personas that never ever was. sneaking themselves into situations that never were intended for them. But it happens. They occur and there's no control. Lost at the head of the ship Steering [...]

adulthood (I)

It's safe to say that one of the biggest lessons I've learned about adulthood is that there will always be questions, but the lesson is that: it's not important to have all the answers.  Along the same line, I'm learning that it's hard to balance everything.  Maybe I don't need to.  But if that's true, [...]

thinking about you

I just had to get out that night. As I swung open the front door, I desperately breathed in the fresh air and immediately felt the ease behind my neck to my shoulders. I was suffocating in the house and its atmosphere of sadness and regrets. Hearing the click of the car door handle was [...]