Hello friends. Let go of the busyness of today. Shrug off the heavy heart and listen to some good music for a few minutes with me.
It’s been years since I first heard Miles Davis play. I was in a music store (yeah, those used to exist) and his CD was right in front of me. It was a time in my life in which I was open and up for anything. I wanted to hear something different. On a whim, I decided to buy his CD called Kind of Blue. I loved it. I haven’t heard the album in so long.
Tonight, I decided to play his song So What. Like magic, nostalgia is never too far away and appears from out of nowhere.
Maggie Rogers is a phenomenal performer, singer and songwriter. Her passion for music and her live performances give me life. It’s a renewal. She woke me up from the slumber of the droning hum of what I used to consider current music. She has changed what I identify as music, its culture and a new definition of love for it. I think we all feel it. That change of sound, the openness of originality and creativity; not just from her, but from a couple of contemporary artists today. I truly feel grateful.
As I wrestle with my current writer’s block on my other posts, I thought to share my love for Maggie’s music and why. She’s infectious. She takes the energy she feels and illuminates it; pours it out of her being. You can see and feel the warmth when her music is being played. I feel like she got it. This genius honesty and gratitude. She’s not in-between or waiting. She’s here and she’s ready and she’s got it. Here’s her performance from The Late Show with Stephen Colbert. She doesn’t make life seem exciting. She is life.
Oh and forgot to share this video, as well. I love this video so much. I’m a sucker for those one-shot productions. Their impressive and raw.
Imogen Heap is a musical genius. She is one the most creative, innovative and interesting musicians out there. I never thought I’d ever see her live since she hasn’t gone on a world tour for eight years or so. It was so worth it.
Honestly, this was a dream come true. There have been countless times in which I’d replay her CD (yes, I actually bought a CD) because it made me happy, hopeful and inspired. Her music came to me during a time in my life when I was still discovering my identity and personal preferences. Learning about her made me admire her even more. Her songs validated these indescribable experiences that mainstream pop songs just couldn’t do. Imogen is also super talented and it is wonderful to see someone with so much knowledge and skill be recognized.
Hearing the songs I’ve enjoyed for years live is an unreal experience (Goodnight & Go, Let Go, Breathe In and Just For Now to name a few). For some of these songs, she performed with her long-time collaborator Guy Sigsworth. This was such a treat! Despite her being sick, her vocals were amazing. Imogen performed with musical, high-tech gloves that assisted her in manipulating the music while she sang. They are called Mi.Mu Gloves and she created them. This is definitely a progressive way of performing and an invention that is, in general, the bee’s knees! She spoke about them in her recent performance at NPR’s Tiny Desk Concert video featured above.
The crowd was so eclectic. There were people dressed in nice dresses, casual jeans, cowboy boots and all in various age groups. Perhaps it’s because her music has been featured on various platforms like the television show The O.C. and the soundtrack to the film Garden State. Her song has been covered by Ariana Grande, sampled by Jason Derulo and she collaborated with Taylor Swift. She even composed the music for the Harry Potter and the Cursed Child play.
She chatted with the audience quite a bit and even had a quick Q & A. I admire and appreciate her ability to just be real and relatable on stage. I’m not sure when she will be performing next, but I will definitely be looking out for her next big idea and song release.
I’ve had the Bittersweet Symphony song in my head for a few days now. Why? Not sure. It’s not a song I typically listen to, although, I haven’t really indulged in music in general lately anyway. Perhaps it’s my mind wanting the vibe it gives because it certainly does give one, doesn’t it?
A close friend from college told me his favorite movie was Cruel Intentions. And for those who aren’t familiar, this song was featured in this movie. It isn’t my favorite, but it made me wonder a lot of things about life. Why some people value certain things while others do not. There’s a whole lot of things in this landscape of life that makes absolute no sense to me.
The moment you realize you do not need is the moment you realize you are free. There are pieces in life that keep us attached because of what we fear or what we can’t let go. And then there are times when we are forced to face our fears and let go of things we never intended to in the first place. Talk about cruel intentions.
But maybe it forces us to see ourselves and this world the way we should. To give us that power to make changes we know we ultimate want to progress or to feel comfortable with the beings we were born to be.
Wherever you are in your journey today, I want to let you know that you aren’t alone. I find myself always changing and progressing; no matter how slow or fast or unpredictable or impractical this path makes it.
I didn’t think I’d write a “wrap-up” post of 2017. I guess this isn’t really the case; it’s more like a “2018 is coming” and how I’m feeling kind of post. Um, maybe a mixture of both. I’ll get to it now..
I’m not sure how I’m feeling about 2018. I think it could go a few different ways and there are always possibilities that I don’t see coming. I think last year I was more excited. And rightly so, 2017 is/was a great year in multiple areas of my life. But 2018 is interesting.
I wrote the above entry in 2017. I had no idea what a hard year 2018 would be. The terrible circumstances that life threw at me were a lot last year. And I’m still recovering. Coming across this post in my drafts is odd. It’s odd to see the song I was listening to at the time. A music video that goes backwards as if I somehow knew I’d go backwards in time with this post.
Despite the rough times that have occurred last year and all the years passed, I always seem to have this small part of me deep down that knows I can get through it. Whatever happens. I am a fighter. For a long time, I did not really recognize that in myself and I don’t think I ever needed to until when I absolutely had to. I am grateful for it.
No matter what, the judgements, the insecurities, the resistance… know that the voice that remains the one to be heard is yours. Not the one that puts you down. Listen to the one that is strong enough to raise you up. Because that is the one that will save you; through and through.
“You taught me the courage of stars before you left How light carries on endlessly, even after death With shortness of breath, you explained the infinite How rare and beautiful it is to even exist.”
I think one of the most surprising things I learned about myself is that I really value design and color. They could be about anything; food presentation, home interiors, choreography and fashion. It’s silly to not know before, but now that I do, it seems so obvious. I did not have a desire to study graphic design or art academically. But I did for film production. I remember being a young critic on how films should have been directed. Or how I would notice all the little details on their set and the most random props. I don’t do this anymore, but I would be the kind of person who would watch a film and then re-watch with commentary from the director or the actors because I was fascinated with their viewpoint or thoughts on a scene. For fun, I would take photographs of buildings in strange angles or preferred to watch dance competitions as opposed to American Idol. Now that I think about it, maybe that was why I was so drawn to indie films. Although they are using traditional forms and processes of media, they present different and unique ways of doing them. They create visuals that are more interesting and memorable. They all kind of live for being imperfect in their way.
A few years ago, I experimented on color and light with a friend. I compiled edited footage of each experiment we did and made a short film.
And then I wondered, how many other videos are out there that have some really cool editing techniques? I used to spend so much time watching different music videos. Here are a few I thought were especially unique that used color or editing in interesting ways.
In case you’re curious, here are some photographs from past color and light experiments.
There is so much building inside my heart. The sorrow I feel is so full that I can’t contain the tears and they just fall. Aimlessly. I do not know what it is my heart is trying to say. Am I crying for what was? Am I crying for a release? Am I crying to tell myself something?
Heartbreak is defined as “overwhelming distress.” There is so much of this feeling lately.
Hearing this song has given me comfort in a deeply meaningful way. The answers do not come. But the feeling of knowing I am not alone has. The thing about heartbreak is that it is a very common occurrence and every single person has felt it in some capacity. Yet, it is such a solely individual feeling. We can all commiserate and relate, but the inner thoughts we have are ours alone to keep and carry.
The particular way our heart breaks is so painful that the arrow that made the shot hit right at the spot where no one else can touch it. The wound is so tender and frail that even the softest touch can sever any connections at all.
But this is not forever. This is true. Our hearts are strong. They rebuild. They mend. We heal ourselves piece by piece. Every day. And one day, when we feel this pain again, we know that it will be okay. Love is and always will be the answer. Feel that.
There’s something so powerful and romantic about this video. The cinematography is shot well with a clear vision of beginning to end. I admire and wish I could dance so freely as the woman in the video does; so comfortably in city streets as if she’s in her home like a child at play. Similarly, to my last review of a music video, this video is also done in one shot. I noticed how the smooth flow of the shot was filmed without any shakiness (as I’m sure most professional cameras can do by now). Following the woman walk through the streets, into restaurants through back alleys gives this sense of exploration without feeling like you’re intruding in people’s lives. But she definitely stands out in the scene. This video makes me want to travel as that is what traveling is to me: a lot of observation and exploration into a culture by being a part of the environment. Although the song is in Japanese and I don’t understand a single line of it, I feel so connected to it. It is because of this music video that gives me this context. I feel that a lot of music videos out there kind of waste a good opportunity into making a good piece of art; failing at connecting the song to the visuals, but obviously, I feel that this one did not.
After watching and listening to this song for a few days now, I decided to write some thoughts that stood out to me about this music video. Firstly, I believe it was filmed in one shot, which is really amazing. It’s being live, but not. The timing & execution for everything (the dance moves, singing and camera movement) has to align just right or else it’ll have to be shot from the beginning again. With that in mind, I really admire the time and practice that was put into it. Secondly, the choreography of this is really well done. I like that the instrumental sounds were highlighted and weaved into their dance. It was so natural and quirky. I haven’t seen a lot of their music videos, so I’m not sure if this is just a part of their style. Thirdly, I like how simple and unique it was. One shot in particular that stood out for me was when the camera quickly pulls backwards at the end. I wonder if this was filmed with a drone or a crane? Overall, I thought the catchy song worked well with how they filmed it.